With the taste of the sea on my lips and the hush & noises of summer on my ears. Sun kissed and simply stoked.
I have now fulfilled another of the great summers. But I say, there’ll be better things coming. There are much bigger and more daring seas out there in the world. Will make time, will definitely make time.
Had always been the peg of my life <3 I swear, soonest I’ll have time. All of it to do this.
For the world is my playground. Go anywhere but here.
Just let it be.
Feel the ocean breeze on your hair and the sunshine warm on your skin <3 Returning to the sea. I am.
Well, aside from not posting any entry on this blog for a time I am also missing out on certain things in life.
I don’t think I am happy with what I am doing anymore. Which is actually normal with me for I get really bored randomly with a lot of different things. But sometimes they can hold up to several months or years. Depending on things. Argh.
Well what I am really going to rant about now, is the fact that I AM BORED. AGAIN! I can’t help it. I am tired of what I am doing which is writing, but for products and whatever fcuking services! I am in advertising. And uggh. This is, I think, not my place in the world. There are a lot of things I want to go back to. Simple things, like waking up slow in the morning, have proper breakfast. Or maybe go on a photo walk during the weekends then have coffee with friends or a solitary one on some days. I miss reading books and writing stuff on my journal so much while a cigarette on my left hand. I crave for these really simple things. I miss my time. I miss the things and the people I can have time for before. It’s a tragedy that I don’t have any time for this anymore. Now, it’s just work, home, eat then sleep. Nothing. There is no life I tell you.
I miss being very active in the movement most especially. I actually miss my ‘kolektib’ back in the region. Oooh, those were the best days of my life. I was really integrated in the masses whom we are serving for :((
Well I think I don’t have any one to blame, but my friggin’ self. I want to push myself now to do what I really really want in life. And I think I have already answered that. I just need to take action.
When I went out of the gate this morning. Saw these 2 girls, reading aloud the contents of what seemed to be old magazines. And I smiled. Couldn’t stop myself from taking a picture of the moment.
“Youth — you are like the sun at 8 or 9 in the morning.” -MaoTseTung
This is how I create my Storyboards :D I’m not good in drawing, please excuse that. I usually leave it to the artist. Haha <3
Yeeees, the map of my life. Now I am happy and ready :D
The start of a long line of realizations and decisions.
A roadtrip that actually made and break my day. Had to come with my friend to look for locations for their upcoming indie film. Went to look for the palayans and old mansions in Bulacan. Straight to San Jose Quezon City for the QM Circle. And the second to the last location was the San Roque, North Triangle for the squatters area shoot. And that was where I was disturbed for the first time that weekend. It’s a long story.
Maybe on the next blog entry then.
Sleep? What is that? Having a hard time remembering it but my body especially my friggin’ eyes tells me to get some. Or rather, get loads of it.
For the past week, been surrendering to slumber at 4am. Everyday. Then goes to the office and write my brains out. But still not hitting the target. I am failing as a writer. I thought I wasn’t meant to be one. Or not really one. Hmmmm, that’s another topic.
So worked my ass off (with a constant reminder to myself to always simplify things down) at the office and been trying to get sideline jobs ‘raket’. And finally I closed 2 project today! How cool is that.
But here’s the catch: Yes you get exhilarated after closing those sideline projects then comes the payment terms part, and the employer guy tells you that the friggin’ conceptualization + writing job’s payment will come after 2 weeks.
Fcuk that. But then. Atleast. *sigh
So, happy Friday. Will say hello to sleep in a bit :D
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